Trick Zft Pcc : Arthur Pendragon

I am procrastinating at the moment, couldn’t write anything for the technical study I’m supposed to complete inward iii days. I decided to write this hoping that other people volition somehow do goodness together with bring something from my experience.

This was my port iii weeks ago:

A crimson port together with stressful operate is never a practiced combination. Most volition inquire how I ended upwards thence deep inward shit. My mentors would disavow me for it seems similar I never learned a thing.

Having the fourth dimension to reverberate I’ve divided this postal service into stages.

Stage 1 – Denial

One critical constituent is the denial stage. The refusal to get got you lot made a error volition inevitably number to non wanting to cutting your losses quickly. I reverted dorsum to what I was earlier the ZF program. When you lot are thence deep inward shit, you lot but --- you lot but can’t leave of absence of it.

Classic “ipit” situation.

I relied on promise again instead of thinking direct together with purpose what I learned. This is similar you lot beingness Pandora, belongings a box amongst null but promise inward it. The current that i is notwithstanding hoping that things volition turnaround eventually is what denial is all about.

You cannot blame me – afterward all to promise is human for human being is an animate beingness amongst a feel of the future, a beingness inward shout out for of reality. Threatened past times fearfulness together with encouraged past times hope, every bit he reaches beyond himself for that which is yet to come.

Let me halt you lot correct in that location every bit you lot powerfulness acquire the incorrect idea, hoping possibly inward human’s nature but the same means you lot wouldn’t mix Mentos® mints amongst a bottle total of Coca-Cola® you lot DON’T mix hope and trading inward i sentence. (which I but did but pay no attending to that). They but won’t acquire good together.

Stage 2 – Seeking Guidance Comfort

In this instance, I felt thence hopeless together with thence frustrated that I wanted to quit trading in that location together with then. I needed to speak to someone. I looked for some guidance. From individual who wouldn’t tell “kaya mo yan” or “makakabawi ka din” or “maliit lang yang loss na yan”.

Celeste inward this postal service (https://rootingforceleste.com/2016/04/26/scribe-chronicles-ism/) took the words out of my mouth:

 “The resonance of comfort alone echoes when the vocalization knows what it says. It volition alone accomplish the pit if it understood the depth of the distress inward the kickoff place.”

ZF didn’t fifty-fifty endeavour to halt me. BUT…

Kap on the other mitt said this:

Did you lot detect what both of them said? Aside from both didn’t tell “makakabawi ka din”.

Study together with invest to a greater extent than time.

Review that trade.

Reflect together with larn from it.

No, I wasn’t looking for those phrases either. In reality, I was but looking for comfort. 

So I ate H2O ice cream. I walked the dogs. I took inward the cast of an Awoken together with killed some Vex together with Fallen inward Venus inward some cast of loose of my frustrations.

Having a routine to de-stress is imperative.

Stage 3 - Acceptance

Everyone knows the tribe has strict cutting loss limits. There are rules. The mentors never failed to remind us, every bit they both kept on reiterating the same phrases: follow rules together with exercise discipline.

I know for a fact that I did non follow the rules together with that I lacked dependent on these trades. If I did, why the hell am I writing this piece?

So I get got directly accepted that I made a mistake. It was on me. Not on the mentors, non on the system.

It notwithstanding took me unopen to ii weeks to live on cutting all those losses. It was the Purge all over again.

By this time, these phrases inward Stage 3 (Study together with invest to a greater extent than time. Review that trade. Reflect together with larn from it.) make to a greater extent than feel now.

So nope, I didn’t heighten the white flag. The cope goes on every bit they say.

Stage 4 – Aftermath

I was supposed to lay depression for a flake together with bring a breather from the marketplace afterward those successive bad trades. But I am every bit stubborn every bit a mule thence I notwithstanding traded together with dug myself deeper together with deeper. I won some trades but I incurred bigger losses.

It is of import to bring a pace dorsum every directly together with then. It gives you lot a wider perspective on things around you. 

I approximate for some divine intervention my twenty-four hours chore forced me to acquire into a sabbatical leave of absence from the market. Mind you, it was hard when the hamlet runs on solar ability together with individual forgot to purchase petrol for the generator. Nonetheless I managed, I had fourth dimension to reverberate together with revisit my trades.

After such reflection i affair is clear I postulate to command my emotions. One real tardily affair to tell yet thence hard to do.

Tame your emotions or it may live the elbow grease of your downfall.

Epilogue

Today 18^th of May, afterward almost a calendar month of incurring losses, Ms. Market seemed to live inward a practiced mood together with welcomed me dorsum amongst arms broad open. I but want it was actually an all-in.

Emotion check: My smiling is notwithstanding from ear to ear BUT non flood amongst joy.

I notwithstanding postulate to operate on my emotions together with thence should you.

One pace at a time. We’ll eventually acquire there.

- Arthur Pendragon
(Eques ZFT Batch VII)