Trick Personal Notes Serial 014 : Of Something In Addition To Nothing

2017

Ahhh.. It's been such a yr together with and therefore many things happened that I experience similar my heed is yet inwards such dissarray.

I've ever wanted to move together with run across the globe when I was younger. I yet do. And this year, I've dedicated most of my days travelling - you lot know, spending a calendar week or 2 inwards i identify together with assay to experience the identify together with civilisation every bit a local. I approximate i of the best things you'd gain from the experience aside from the scenic views together with swell food, is a deeper agreement of humanity together with your identify inwards this world. 

Maybe you've noticed ZF isn't the green ZF that he is anymore when he started. Well, to tell you lot honestly, I've been starting to experience burnt out.

Before when someone messages inwards the ZF page bespeak for help, I'd commonly come upwardly to their rescue together with give a friendly reply. Now, there's a 70% run a jeopardy I'd scold the mortal or give mutual frigidity replies. Am I getting every bit good sometime for this?

One time, me together with Celeste were talking most how our favorite TAP together with other groups own got been leading newbloods astray amongst their together with therefore called "trading systems." 

"Okay lang yan. We demand a diversified market. The to a greater extent than ignorant traders in that place are, the to a greater extent than coin for us." I replied. Have I turned bad? I think this disceptation from Two-face inwards Dark Knight : 

Have I go a Villain? 

Thinking most it now, I approximate I've neglected my inner youngster together with forgot to own got to a greater extent than fun than I should - releasing all my worries together with non giving a unmarried aid inwards the world. Maybe I've taken to a greater extent than responsibleness than I should together with could handle? I don't know.

I would similar to give cheers Rooting For Celeste for keeping my emotional wellness inwards check. If it weren't for you, I'd belike human activeness similar closed to sometime bitter fool ranting all the time.

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This season, where our Filipino civilisation dictates that families pass fourth dimension together, I reach upwardly one's heed to endure alone. It's my kickoff fourth dimension to intermission tradition. I intend I've experienced a glimpse of how OFWs experience beingness all lonely working their assess off during this fourth dimension of the year, inwards a unusual province for the sake of their identify unit of measurement together with loved ones. My see aches for you lot people.

Nakakamiss din pala yung mga nakakainis na walang kamatayang tanong at statements ng mga aunties at uncles similar : 

"Saan ka na connected ngayon?"

"May Girlfriend ka na?"

"Kelan ka ikakasal?"

"Tumaba ka yata?"

Kakaakward. Kakainis. Pero Kakamiss.

And you lot know what I've realized?

In gild to fully appreciate something, you lot must kickoff know what it's similar to own got nothing. And if you lot own got it? Lose it. Then instruct it dorsum all over again. Because even amongst all the money, recognition together with authorization I have, It yet won't shell beingness amongst the people I love.