Trick Personal Notes Serial 005 : Struggles Of A High Run A Endangerment Trader

Money is the source of all evil they say. 
But it is not. For Money is neutral. 
It is the Love of Money that is the source of all evil.

A few days agone a friend together with I were walking along the street together with nosotros saw this 50 peso pecker that was inside our reach. "Uy may 50 pesos oh!" But nosotros continued walking together with allow the pecker acquire blown past times the wind. We laughed. 

That 2d made me realize how much I convey changed together with how much has been provided for me - to the betoken that it felt similar I was drowning inwards divine provision. God wasn't joking when He said... 

"Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that in that place may live nutrient inwards my house. Test me inwards this," says the Lord Almighty, "and run into if I volition non throw opened upwardly the floodgates of sky together with pour out together with hence much approbation that in that place volition non live room plenty to shop it."

"What are yous going to produce amongst all that coin zee?" I was, together with I nevertheless am inwards deep see on the matter. Yes it is a blessing. But it also has expire a burden.

"To whom much is given, much is also required."

And together with hence I constantly attempt wisdom every bit to how I volition expire a practiced steward of my talents together with this resource.

I got to chat amongst my friends together with they beak close their problems close how they're non beingness treated good at work, their struggles of non beingness able to relieve or exactly non having plenty past times the destination of the day.

I run into unopen to people working together with giving to charity together with how a lot of the miserable state they ask coin together with all these resources together with hence they could finally move out of poverty.

I wishing I could help. And I wishing coin was the fundamental to solve all these problems. But it isn't.

Even if yous divulge a i K 1000 inwards cash, the miserable volition remain miserable unless they alter their agency of thinking. And a trader or investor volition constantly lose coin if their mindsets inwards trading or investing is wrong.

I recall giving practiced amounts of cash to a few people when they needed help. And sadly, my giving turned out to live a curse to them. Because afterward a catamenia of time, they became dependent. I powerfulness convey destroyed their lives. I promise not. And together with hence I convey learned when to give together with when to withhold.

Sometimes I experience together with hence helpless together with weak. You convey what they want. But yous can't give it to them. 
And non everyone wants your see of help. Even if they ask it.

If yous really desire to assist people, yous convey to assist them alter their mindsets. 

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This calendar week has been difficult on me. Melancholy has hitting me out of nowhere. Maybe I've spent also much fourth dimension amongst myself that I got to reverberate a lot close life.

Trading is my passion. But it has expire dull for me. Like that feeling of completing together with beingness the strongest graphic symbol inwards a game where all the creeps are killed amongst a unmarried blow. At unopen to betoken all the fun is gone.

(I produce promise I don't expire bald)

The twelvemonth is exactly starting and I've already reached my quota for 2016. 
My trading port is straight off 1.7M+ bigger together with there's nevertheless eleven months.


And all this coin I convey has belike desensitized me from my elementary pleasures similar food, gadgets together with cute stuff. Have my standards raised without me noticing it? I alive a pretty elementary life every bit opposed to what a lot of yous powerfulness think. But the things I considered exceptional convey straight off expire normal to me. If I wanted something, I'd exactly state "Isang Tsupita lang yan." Oh the arrogance.

I convey carefully evaluated myself together with empathise the ask for me to exercise restraint together with for me to i time once to a greater extent than connect together with relate amongst civilians. My contact amongst other humans has expire also minimal this month. And being ZF has seat me inwards an awfully weird position. People human face me to produce things together with human activity a sure way. I exactly desire to live an anonymous troll enlightening people to the truth together with exposing bullshit when needed. And I am non unopen to mutual depression temperature hearted Klingon warrior that feels goose egg - I convey feelings too.

Gaining insights from the wisest human being who walked the public inwards the majority of Ecclesiastes has pushed a lot of my buttons these days. I felt similar the dude was my best friend for a moment. 

"Life is meaningless."

Indeed it is, if yous are without purpose. 

Yes. Money tin purchase a lot of things, but It for certain can't purchase lasting happiness together with contentment - fifty-fifty if yous produce honorable things similar give all your coin to the miserable or produce practiced works. For There's a constant void inwards everyone of us...

And exclusively God tin fill upwardly it.