Trick Personal Notes Serial 003 : Ordeals As Well As Purpose

It's been v enterprise years since I started active trading. And equally I look back to all that I've been through - the memories of all the proficient together with bad experiences, It however feels equally if it's non enough, together with that I know nothing.

There are days when I wake together with think 

"How the hell did I got this far?"

I wasn't a amount fourth dimension trader when I started.

And equally I an idealist, it was difficult to alive inwards a corrupted world.

I yell back my potent distaste for having a project together with working for bosses together with supervisors that disregarded excellence, progress together with innovation. It saddened me when I saw the people inwards power, tripping together with bullying those who were weak. I know how it feels to move weak together with I wanted to move a defender. Influenza A virus subtype H5N1 hero. But it ever broke my heart when I was deemed incorrect together with had to endure the consequences whenever I tried standing upward to evil.

"Tiis ka lang. Matatapos din to."

But for how long?

I jurist that was 1 of the reasons that pushed me to where I am
 now. I swore that fourth dimension non bow downwards to anyone but God.

Trading was the perfect escape. 

No forced "OT"

No corrupt BOSS

No project I didn't like

I was naive. So I Borrowed trading money and took the confine of faith.

(I DO NOT RECOMMEND YOU DO THIS)

There were seasons when I lost a lot together with close went crazy. Just imagine borrowing iv Million together with Lose 3M+ , then suddenly the people who you lot borrowed from (who past times the way, don't know each other) would enquire for their coin at the same time.

But looking at how things went, I know that I had to go through that terrible experience for a reason.

I got to know together with experience that at that topographic point actually is a God out there.

That it wasn't only tradition or religion.

I got to sympathise who I was, that I had role inwards life.

To inspire others. (Naiinspire nga ba kayo?) 
To gear upward an example. Influenza A virus subtype H5N1 standard.

And move a testimony of God's dearest together with principles.

I await at around of my trades together with go

"Meh."

But deep within I sympathise that it is past times God's ability and principles that I am able to force off trades beyond the average trader. For I know rattling good who I am - that I attain non ever convey the patience nor the discipline.

I yell back around other experience, of God telling me 1 fourth dimension to carve upward together with hand half-dozen figures to several groups of people. And during this time, I had a vii figure loss In my port. It was hard. But I had faith.

"If God won't salve me on this ordeal, I'll only convey my favorite food
 for the residue of the twelvemonth - or the residue of  my life lang naman."

Of shape I would move lying If I said I didn't convey my doubts.

"Honor the Lord amongst your wealth together with amongst the best role of 
everything you lot produce. Then He volition fill upward your barns amongst grain,
 and your vats volition overflow amongst proficient wine."

What BS is this?

Common sense would say us that it is ever amend to have than
 to give. Giving is an honorable act. But who inwards their correct mind
 thinks giving is amend than receiving?

 But I say you, endeavour the regulation higher upward together with you'll move surprised.

Tithing or surrendering 10% of what you lot convey to God tin attain wonders.

Imagine what God tin attain if you lot deed inwards faith together with hand more.

I jurist sooner or later on we'll terminate upward similar William Colgate.

5 Awesome roller coaster years.

Not certain how I'll terminate this post. So I volition only portion what happened several nights agone when nosotros had an opened upward chat amongst non ZFT Traders. We had a great time. I had a great time. And after all the technical together with personal questions people had, 1 educatee asked me this:

(Ano nga ba? What's yours?)

Of course "Pills" wasn't my answer.

"The essence of existence a trader? 

parang immature adult woman universe lang ah..."

"To move a main of one's emotions and 

to opportunity non only for one's ain benefit 

but for others."

-Love ZF